Sadly/Happily I finished this book today. The ending was beautiful. One quote that really stuck with me and even brought a few tears out.
"For the first time ever, I knew something that I had absolutely no doubt about. I knew right from that cold, clear moment, that that truth would never change. I am my hell, it comes from me, it's my responsibility and it's my fault.
But that's fine."
whatever you're doing forget it and go get this book.